It’s been ages since I updated…but I’ve been busy with work etc. Well not much to say, Easter’s gone, the holidays have flown by and suddenly I’m told…STUDY LEAVE….10^th May *screams*

The exam have crept up on me soooo quickly…I don’t know where time went *coughschronotriggercoughs* *megacoughsffviiicough* >.<;;; I really bring it on myself.

Went to Nottingham during the Easter holidays…it was fun, but everyone talks with a Northern accent so I came back from hols with one lol…it’s not funny…it really annoys me. We went to find out where the uni was, but because the campus was opened…we sort of looked around *ssshh* don’t tell anyone lol

I didn’t really have time to do my homework…I was rushing to do it the night before…baaaadddd idea, lack of sleep makes me go woozy.

But surprisingly I actually woke up earlier than usual…but something was wrong with the buses that day…I waited at the bus stop for TWENTY minutes…and the buses are meant to come every 8/12 minutes…there is something wrong there >.< so I ended up going to school on normal time.

I didn’t properly look at my chemistry paper…so I didn’t realise that I COULD actually do half the questions *sweatdrops*…so typical, so I had to lie to the teacher and she was like “I don’t want to be grumpy…don’t make me grumpy, I don’t want to be a grumpy old lady like on TV,”…my friend muttered to me “No, the women on TV are funny” I despise chemistry…I don’t know WHY I took it in the first place >.<

On the very down side…I recorded myself singing *cries* I sound TERRIBLE…flat and completely out of tune >.< But then I actually focused and everything, and my tuning has improved now…so I’m happy I discovered that ^^

I’m done with my ranting

~Later dayz

I've been busy and depressed to right anything new on the blog so this is a short entry...as a tribute to my late terrapin who died Squirt...

S.Q.U.I.R.T

He was sweet, quiet, uber-cute, inspirational red belly terrapin and he was always a comfort to have around the house...whenever I was playing the piano or composing and had loss of inspiration, Squirt would just be sitting near the door of the garden sunbathing in the sun...or walking around the floor and he would look up with his little blue eyes...and I'd just smile. In a way he was my inspiration.

Unlike his little friend Crush who always made a lot of noise and explored whatever space they happen to be in, Squirt would be content to just sit in one space by the sun...and if he was moving around, you could never tell...until you look at the spot he was last and notice him missing...

The burial was short but sweet...however no amount of ceremony will take away the memories I have in my heart, or equal the funeral I had in my heart.

It was odd, when someone or in my case my terrapin dies, you don't notice how much they mean to you. For me, it felt like a part of my heart was hollow...and for the first few days it hurt...but I guess with the help of everyone you can move on. But I don't know, but it feels selfish to just move on and not continue mourning...but to mourn forever suits no purpose...and that vacant spot in my heart will always be reserved for Squirt...

Rest in Peace...

I know I haven't been updating for some time....understatement....AGES...but who reads this besides my musume-chan Ace, ne?
Well instead of the usual rantings of a teen, I was going to try something different...since it's coming to Christmas I thought I'd do some reflecting on things...well things that most people won't understand as well as express my thanks and sincerest love for all my friends.

For the past weeks, I knew there was a huge fanbase for the JPop/JRock singer Gackt, and for a long time I've been meaning to listen to some of his music. I've always been attracted to singers who either write their own lyrics or compose their own music. Who would have thought he was so bloody hot as well as having such a gorgeous voice ^^

I've been reading some of his interviews and his autobiography, and I found that he was an amazing person...his thoughts, his feelings, the way he thinks and the way he is...and how he expresses himself in his music was amazing...and for the first time in a long time I was really touched...and believe me I'm an emotional person...but it was just beautiful. I don't speak Japanese...or read or write for that matter, so I always have to rely on the translation of the actual songs...but even though the translations will never convey the true meaning/feelings of the song, the music and melodies help to create that feeling...and there is a overwhelming compelling element in his music which I think is unique.

There was a time in my life when I felt that dreaming was for dreamers...and dreams were just dreams without true meaning...after all you make them, plan them out but in the end never keep them...they become nothing more than regret within your life. I've come to discover that dreams motivate individuals, and allow them to be brave enough to try things so they won't look back one day and have a chain of "what-ifs" pulling them down.

I never knew what to do in my life...my parents had said to go and do law...and I thought...hey why not? But a friend helped me realise that I'll be spending a possible 3/4 years doing this subject and then the rest of my life doing it as well...do I really want to do this subject for the rest of my life without having the true passion for it? Is money all that matters in life? Maybe people need money to survive...but it's not about the money, it's about spending your life doing something that you will love doing without regret. My friend also helped me to realise that depression gets you nowhere...and since that day, I've lived my life being happy ^^ besides, depression really doesn't suit me.

This new school year, I met the most wonderful person I have met in my life...her name is Ann and her soul is just beautiful...she's very sweet and while I encourage her as best I can, she herself has given me strength and the will to dream and to believe in myself...and there is no sufficient way I can thank her but with all my heart I really do.

Last but not least...I want to thank all my friends and my family who have supported me in the past and the present, and will always support me into the future...I appreciate all your support and love you all in different ways! I hope that through your love and support, I'll be guided and one day...just one day, I will have the wings to fly!

Keep watching me, and one day I'll soar high and fulfill my own dreams...

Friday 26th August

Pure Innocence~Breathe

Listening to: Mizu no Akashi by Kajiura Yuki featuring Rie Tanaka

Mood: Happy

Ice Fury: Evermore for randomness :P

I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Went on Thursday to get my GCSE results…I’m pleased to say I will NOT be banned from the internet and from MSN and phone calls to my friends ^^

My results surprised everyone…in my family and me especially! My cousin Janet said that she didn’t expect me to do so well, and my other cousin Justin said he wa surprised to hear I got good results ^^;, it’s nice to know that your family members whom you are supposed to be close to have so much faith in you *note the sarcasm*

When I got the envelope with my results I sat down first so that I could compose myself…trust me if I had opened my envelope and looked at my results I would have fainted on the spot…the results were….AMAZING!

I got 3 A*s in Music, Latin and French….FRENCH! Of all subjects, French, the subject which I did a really simple paragraph for the writing paper…and Music…when I thought I did really badly in the film music section…and my compositions weren’t what you’d really want to play in a concert >.< Latin I’m impressed because I usually only get As…but I guess learning the Virgil actually helps :P

I got 6As in Double Science, English Language, Maths, ICT and History…..DOUBLE SCIENCE I was sure I failed the Chemistry and Physics paper…especially since I crammed before the exam…and most of the stuff I crammed didn’t come up in the exam >.<…but WOW! English Language…shoot me I must be dreaming….I got an A in English LANGUAGE…the worst of all my subjects….I guess that nightmare essay must have been quite good then…although I gave myself nightmares for the next few days *shudders to remember* Maths I knew was quite OK, ICT was iffy, but the theory paper seemed too easy so I was quite worried, but I guess it was easy after all! History…was to be expected, I always get As…not to sound too conceited >.>

I got the B in English Literature…which was better than my estimate…I thought I’d get a C…I was really worried with English Lit because when I saw the actual GCSE questions…I was like…oh shit, which question can I do? Which question is easiest...NONE OF THEM WERE! so I just had to pretend I knew my facts >.<…perhaps if it wasn’t for the coursework I WOULD have got a C…THANK YOU COURSEWORK ^^

So overall I’m a happy girl, my daughter is very proud of me…as I am of her…my clever and beautiful daughter *glomps*, my twin is also very proud and happy of me *glomps* to twin twinny twin twin twin twin twin twin ^^ and my parents are happy with my results >.< Friends congratulated me and I felt warm and happy inside…now I can listen to my J Pop and C Pop music all day in and out and they can’t complain BECAUSE I DID IT! almost…I wonder whether I’m still allowed to go to see the Phantom of the Opera in the theatre…after all I surpassed my own expectations: P

Expect more updates now…until I go back to school for AS levels >.<…so until then…catch ya later

~Ice Fury

Monday 22nd August

Pure Innocence~Aishiteru

Listening to: Minami Kaze by Shimokawa Mikuni

Mood: Happy

Ice Fury: We seem so far apart and it breaks my heart…

Countdown: 3 days *gulps*

I’m back from the sunny weather of Malaysia and the humidity and shopping paradise of Hong Kong. I’m back from the North West of UK, from visiting a friend who has changed so much, I hardly know her anymore. But the holidays was fun…shame had to come back home for my results >.<

First I went to Hong Kong, refused to eat the plane food….big mistake, was feeling very weak and sick when I arrived in Dubai for the first stop, and because I find it hard to sleep on the airplane, I was absolutely bored, especially since there were no decent films or music on….if I didn’t have the Phantom of the Opera and my Tetris game I would have died…literally.

Luckily when we arrived in HK, it was night so I could wash and sleep…in a BED where there is no plane noise and ear popping ^^

Shopping in HK is heaven, the food is good too…but I have a small appetite so I can’t stomach a lot of it. I saw Gundam Seed in HK and fell in love with the music, it’s so awesome…so in love that I brought “Gundam Seed Complete Best” soundtrack CD :P

Went to Malaysia for work experience, was fun…the kids are so sweet, but if only they’d be willing to try to speak English to me? This is another reason why I think I should have learnt Chinese when I was younger >.<…oh well what’s past is past and now is the future >.<

Got a hair cut in HK, its shoulder length and layered, and much easier to manage. I’m not really the person for long hair; shoulder length is enough to keep the frost from my ears in winter, and it suits me better. I want to colour it red…may get the hair dye from Superdrug and do it myself though…cheaper…

Liverpool was fun, met some of Poppy’s friends-they’re nice but I was quite shy because I only met a few of her guy friends and having not had much contact with boys outside my own family…I was quite nervous but I had a lot of fun, whereas in London I’d be sitting at the piano or typing on the computer like now :P

I saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and Madagascar…the oompa loompas are so funny XD and the penguins in Madagascar were so funny too.

I also learnt a little Mandarin in Liverpool from Poppy’s mother, much more than I managed to learn from Kurikuri-K…and this time it’s actually sticking in my head XP….just tells you who’s a CRAP TEACHER

I plan to kill her someday…Ace and I have it planned out…but I can’t tell you in case you alert the police of impending murder :P

Went out with Ace today…I can’t believe that I missed her that much, I also missed being able to talk about our private jokes…things that Poppy didn’t understand, and just hang round with her and do random shopping and trying on clothes without buying….to put it simply, I missed Ace and the fun we get up to back home. Going away is nice, but you miss home after awhile, ne?

But the one thing I don’t miss is the pouring rain >.<…a bastard came by in a white car and splashed both Ace and I with rain water in the puddles so we were soaked. She came back to my house to dry up…but the damage was done, the jeans dried slightly but it’ll take a long time before they’re fully dry…if I meet that bastard again…or track down his car, I’ll puncture each of his tires and scratch up the paintwork…I wish :P…in my dreams maybe

Not much else to say…wish me luck for Thursdays’ results

~Ice Fury

Monday 4^th July

Pure Innocence~Aishiteru

Listening to: The Coral Fang by The Distillers

Mood: Bored/Free

Ice Fury: FREEDOM HAS NEVER TASTED SWEETER IN A MILLION YEARS ^^; Of course I haven’t LIVED a million years so I wouldn’t know

Countdown: 13 days *cheers*

My auntie and uncle from HK recently joined the party of 4 people living in the house. There used to be 4 people living in the three bedroom house…but now there are EIGHT people…so where exactly can they all sleep?!??!

My parents are staying in their room, my brother has to sleep in the same room as the piano and my terrapins who are active since 4 in the morning lol, my auntie and uncle are sleeping on a mattress in the living room, and my two cousins are sleeping in my brother’s original room. Where do I sleep? In my own room of course…no one likes my room L…it’s quite sad really, but good for me cos I can sleep in COMFORT

My friend Kurikuri-K promised me that she would make it to the cinema today…but she didn’t. I waited outside Forbidden Planet for half an hour and rang her house, which went to answer machine so I figured she might have left. I went around Croydon for the next half hour just in case her mother had dragged her early shopping for a bit and I went down to A Place in Space and my school just in case she got the venue mixed up…but seriously even I didn’t think she would be that stupid. Then I went and spent 45 minutes in Forbidden Planet again checking in regular intervals for her…she didn’t turn up…I was SO FUCKING PISSED OFF! That bitch! Anyway on the plus side, I brought a new manga…it’s a Korean made one but the front drawing was so interesting…I brought Vol 1 to see what it’s like…if I don’t like it I won’t by the rest :P

Tomorrow I’m going to see a musical in the Palace Theatre London called The Woman in White…it’s one of the newest musicals by Andrew Lloyd Webber AND it has Michael Crawford starring in it, he was the original Phantom in the Phantom of the Opera so his voice is really good…so it should be fun ^^

I feel that in the scenario of recent events which led to me indebted to my best friend Ace…I should extend her tribute…so here we go *drum roll*

TRIBUTE TO ACE

A Adorable

C Caring

E Embarrassing XD

Ace is one of my closest friends in school, and recently became my adopted daughter…she’s a great daughter but sometimes I feel that she’s the mother and I’m the child…though she is younger than me. She aggravates me sometimes and gives me reason to whack her with my lunchbox…but then she does make rather vulgar suggestions which I do not appreciate. Half the time she seems zonked herself lol, and she can be quite hyper after a while…but I wuv her to bits *UBER-GLOMP*

But she reads Fruits Basket and likes The Phantom of the Opera too and The Distillers ^^

She was willing to possibly humiliate and embarrass herself for MY SAKE…*gasps* I never knew she had such a streak to her. But everything turned out fine…and I have her to thank or else I would never have even got to the stage I am today…I WUV YOU SO MUCH my lovely daughter ^^

She is also audacious=>read her blog about the Ann Summers incident for details :P and she never backs down from a challenge. She is able to think with her head rather than her heart and she is very loyal to her friends. She plays oboe and piano (possibly more but I don’t think she mentions it)…and she can play All that Jazz on the piano *.*…sounding great! She can also take what people say in her stride and is good at hiding her feelings about possible criticism (though there isn’t much to criticise her about ^^)

OK there we go…your extended tribute has been done…great now I have to extend Poppy’s >.<, I’m joking darling, my twinny twin twin twin twin twin twin (is that the right number?) *glomps*

Blah, my ranting done for today so until next time…I will be updating sometime soon rather than month intervals since I have a lot of time…I’ll tell you when I can no longer do it though lol. Later dayz!

~Ice Fury